Wednesday, October 16, 2013

.happy with the u n k n o w n.

I don't even know where to start.

Blogs seem to be easier when I have a specific topic to write about, I feel like my thoughts have been so all over the place lately. 

However, I guess I will start with the fact that I moved to Canada, and yes it is quite lovely here, I must say. So far I have met some really interesting/nice people. I have gotten settled in my house, and FINALLY have some furniture. Haha, I can tell that the Lord is doing some great things in and around me, but honestly I can't tell you what. I can just tell that He is. It's like I know He is going to teach me something, and is in the process of doing so, and I am just content in knowing that. I just keep going day to day, feeling like this is where I am supposed to be even though I have no idea why yet. Some of you can probably relate to that. It's like being totally and completely happy with the unknown simply because you at least know that God is doing something awesome and you're just riding along, trying to hold on as best you can. Now with that, I guess I can also be brutally honest in saying that I have been struggling pretty heavily with a few things. It seems as if baring my soul on a blog might not be the best idea I've ever had, but I will let you guys know that it isn't easy being alone. People keep asking if I'm lonely and I honestly haven't felt lonely once, I don't mind being alone I actually prefer it on occasions. I really have just been struggling with being myself, my normal 'go out and tell everybody about Jesus' self. I want to be like that, but for some reason I feel like something is holding me back, I wish I could explain it better but I can't. As I do realize that we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, and that we are constantly at war. I have been daily working and fighting to keep my armor on, and daily trying to rely on Him for my strength, but I must say....It is much harder to keep at it without your family of believers surrounding you. I just keep telling myself: you are still breathing, so keep seeking Him in all that you do Libby, reminding myself of all His promises. My mind feels cluttered and I honestly want to apologize for how jumbled this blog is, I just wanted to let you guys in on whats been going on with me. 

I will stand firm knowing that, 'he himself is my peace..' - Ephesians 2:14

With all that said, how wonderful is it to know that:

"And you were dead in your trespasses and sins in which you once walked, following the course of this world, following the prince of the power of the air, the spirit that is now at work in the sons of disobedience--among whom we all once lived in the passions of our flesh, carrying out the desires of the body and the mind, and were by nature children of wrath, like the rest of mankind. But God, being rich in mercy, because of a great love with which he loved us, even when we were dead in our trespasses, made us alive together with Christ --- by grace you have been saved --- and raised us up with him and seated us with him in the heavenly places in Christ Jesus, so that in the coming ages he might show the immeasurable riches of his grace in kindness toward us in Christ Jesus. For by grace you have been saved through faith. And this is not your own doing; it is the gift of God, not as a result of works, so that no one may boast. FOR WE ARE HIS workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand, that we should walk in them." 

As I go out and speak with numerous people who have no kind of relationship with the Lord, and could honestly careless about any of it, I am filled with sadness and disappointment but then I remember these verses. I was once there to. I was dead in my trespasses but God is rich in mercy and it is only by grace that I have been saved. I pray that He will shower these people with his unending mercy and draw them closer to Himself showing them his grace in kindness toward them in Christ Jesus.

I want to thank each of you for your continuous support and prayers, much love! 

1 comment:

  1. (: Keep pressing in. I've been struggling as well...this is a war, world-wide, for mankind. I will dare to say it's the worst war ever fought because it goes beyond flesh & blood and the physical things that we can grasp. Anyway. I'm so happy you at least have peace. I hope He blesses you greatly and that beautiful things will happen. I hope you will be surprised each day by His love and power. I hope for your protection and that He will show you how to fight the power of darkness. <3 May His grace hold you and keep you.